Thursday, September 10, 2009

Last post....

I have got nothing to say... I am completely speechless... I just wanna ask you guys(friends of Elaine) one question.... DO YOU GUYS KNOW WHO I AM? BESIDES MY NAME IS JANE... TELL ME... WAD DO YOU KNOW MORE THAN THAT? You guys don't understand the whole thing... Do you even know wad exactly happen? Do you know how much I have been through? You don't... You are all Elaine's friend... So automatically you guys know her more... And try to protect her from being bully.... But do you know me????? You guys don know a single bit bout me... And now you are telling me wad to do.... Do you think it's fair???? You don't know me... So please don make a conclusion of who I am.... One of you said that I have to believe my friends if I want them to believe in me... But Everytime I tried to believe her(Melinda), she just turn around and bite me instead... Do you even know that??? No you don't... One of you ask me to break up with my bf to know how it feels.... Now I will tell you that I have been through this... A thougher one... Only you didn't know... And today Sen Peng talk to Lo bout me.... Bout I love to pretend.... I wonder why? I never pretent in front of her.... I thought Sen Peng was my friend.... I thought friends don't have this kind of secrets between them.... Why can't you just tell me and see if I could change? Instead if talking behind my back... And you actually enjoyed it.... When I cried because of it, you actually smile so happily... I really couldn't understand you guys.... One of you actually said that I always cry, eventhough it was just a small problem.... Why can't you guys just understand? I am crying because of you.... I hope you could tell me my problem instead of talking bout it behind my back... Comparing me with others... Who's better and who's a jerk... I guess that's it... And Elaine.... I have no hard feelings toward you... You know I never will.... I am angry today because of wad other people did to me.... Not you... You know I never get mad with you... I just got dissapointed sometimes.... Coz you don't even wanna give me a chance to explain everything... Like wad happen the day before yesterday... Anyway, Elaine... Please... I'm sorry... Though I don know wad did I did that you don't like... But I hope you will tell me.... And erm... Friends of Elaine... I hope you guys enjoy taking over the blog... I am really leaving... This will be my very last post.... Coz I understand nobody will ever try to understand me and keep on making conclusion of who I am... A good person or a bad one.... And I could see that Sen Peng feels alright at this situation... She could still smile and all... Being happy with her friends.... Chatting around and joking around.... I guess that's the best for you... I won't try to get anybody to believe me anymore... Since I have learn that that is no use.... But Sen Peng, I will answer one question of yours in here... You ask Yee Xuan why I wrote that post yesterday.... And I am gonna tell you now... Evrery single post that I have post in here, I wrote it with my true feelings... I don wanna act and wrote that I am happy even when I am not... Yee Xuan told me that one day the truth will come out by itself... I guess all I need to do is wait for the time... And you guys will know automatically... No matter how much you all hate me... I am still gonna love you all... I know wad I am talking about... Seriously... Please don't think that I love to pretend... Though I don't know where you guys got that idea.... I am a person.... That talk from my heart... I did everything that my heart ask me to.... So I guess that's all.... Take care everybody... I just hope that you guys will feel better without me trying to explaining... Futhermore I am tired of explaining, you guys will know the truth one day... Oh yeah... I almost forgot... Elaine... Did you really broke up with your bf because of me? I am very sorry... I couldn't believe you did this to me... Is there any possibilities of you and Keith getting back together? Please? How could I? I have been so selfish... Because wad I think bout Keith, that make you guys borke up... I am very very sorry.... I hope you guys will be together again.... Seeing that you guys are together for that long... Please... I know you guys still love each other... I really feel guilty bout it... I am sorry... sorry... sorry... So I guess that's it... So good bye apple club... And for Elaine's friend, I hope you guys will be happy for wad I did.. Wad I mean is leaving.. Good bye to all of you!!!!!! Best of luck!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

刚刚,跟雨链,Melinda,彬莹吵起架来了... 不知道为何,你们根本不想听我的看法...雨链说是我的错,我愿意跟你道歉,是你的错的话,我愿意原谅你....为什么你连听都不听我说,感觉上就是想把我赶走就对了...我用我最平静的心情,想跟你把事情搞清楚....你却跟我说话时每一句都带骨头...你说我之前很过分,在这里把Melinda骂得很可怜,而且之后还把那一个post删除掉...我在这里想说的是,Melinda不是苹果帮的...突然在这里post comment,而且第一句就出口伤人,你觉得这样很合理吗?而且,她说,我怎么会有这样的朋友,还叫我不要再装了...这真的很过分好不好?我在这个blog那么久,从来没在这儿提过她,她竟然就这样一开口就骂人....然后到后来,过了那件事之后,你跟我说你为什么离开苹果帮,我愿意当你的聆听者,过后我还尝试帮你跟语绚谈谈...你要知道,那是在我post关于Melinda的过后你才跟我说的...所以你现在气我,我真的觉得很奇怪...之前对我那么好,愿意与我分享你的痛苦,而现在又为了这么久以前的事气我....我不明白你们的看法...你说我跟以前简直不同了....我愿意接受...你对我有什么不满,我也希望你会告诉我,我会改....真的...之前你告诉我说你相信我多于Melinda,是跟我开玩笑的吧?你知道我有多努力在阿帮你吗?你之前跟我说的,我仔细聆听,然后几夜没睡想办法帮你....你说如果她们不想换一下性格,就由他们吧...你不想给他们压力...所以我才照你的方法去做,不再理会这件事...而我换来的,却是你的不认同与怀疑....说真的...我没有半点觉得生气,只有觉得失望...你们所讨论的...就觉得百分之百是对的...根本连听都不想听我的看法....我知道,我自己也有察觉到我比起以前真的变太多了....你只要告诉我,我都会改...虽然说我不确定我能够彻彻底底把我怀习惯改掉,可是我会尽全力...真的.....有一点,真的让我很失望...你们全拿我来跟Melinda比较...你们说....我觉得至少Melinda比Ham Shu Ying好很多...我听到这样的一句话真的很心疼,我再怎么差,你们也不用这样说吧?说真的,你们好好平静下来想一想,我真的有这样坏吗?你们不跟我很熟,没有到最好的朋友那一种关系。。。你们就旦听外人所说,就判断我是坏人。。。这样对我公平我?你们甚至给我解释的机会都没有。。。我想。。。要回到从前,应该不可能了吧?我不要求你们原谅我。。。我只希望你们听完我的解释后,会觉得好受一点。。。不要恨我。。。这是我唯一的愿望。。。那就。。。说到这里吧。。。。

Sunday, August 23, 2009

谢谢你曾经陪伴着我..~

谢谢你做我的朋友..^^

谢谢你让我的回忆更美满..


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许许多多的以前,许许多多的回忆..21

这些回忆让我们的童年添加了色彩..

让我们都经过快乐,悲伤,忧虑,害怕...

期盼着要到的将来,

等待着要到的未来..

大家的友情,

永远都没有句号,

大家的友情,

永远都没有污点..

把每一份真诚的友谊,

都藏在心中..

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你是我最好的朋友,我希望你知道这个是真的..
无论发生什么事,我都会站在你这里;
当你需要我的时候,我一定会出现,
给你援手,助你一臂..
有需要的时候尽管来找我..
不因为为什么,
只因为我们是朋友..
不希望你忘掉我..
不希望你憎恨我..
只希望你记住我~
一定要记住哦!
希望我们友谊万岁~


CONFUSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok.... Elaine and binyin... I love to have you guys back... Really... I am not pretending... Ok??? Maybe i am just... you know.... Stupid... I don know how to express my feelings.... And erm... It's going to be very nice if you guys are coming back.... Erm... Well... The way that I worte to binyin asking her why she's back in that kind of rude way....I wanna apologize... I am sorry... I just didn't express my feelings correctly... And erm... To tell you guys the truth... I was also a bit mad that time... I mean... Well... How could you guys? You guys leave without reasons and then suddenly coming back posting comments that kind of stuff.... Is that a kind of joke??? I have been reading Elaine's last post for at least ten times... I think.... And every single time... I cried... And cried... And cried... I thought it was my fault that you guys left.... And then suddenly you guys come back and pretending like nothing happen.... posting comments and joke around... I am just very.... you know.... Confused.... Could someone plese explain to me wad have happen???

Friday, August 21, 2009

以后再怎么得忙,我都会定时在这儿写日记,我希望总有一天,我会再看到雨链和彬莹从新加入。。。苹果帮。。。

舒颖草于。。。8月21日

这个世界,已经到了无法挽回的地步。。。不知道为何,有些事情,就算你再多努力,你都不会得到。。。快乐与悲伤,已经混合在一起。。。就这样一会儿快乐,一会儿悲伤,时间久了,你就会分不出你的心情。。。文健告诉我说,一个星球将会离开轨道,跟地球相撞。。。我知道这样说感觉上很荒诞,但是,为什么我的直觉告诉我说。。。。这很可能发生。。。我反复看着雨链为我们大家留下的离别信,可是,却寻不出原因来。。。如果我在这儿要求你们从新回到苹果帮,你们会答应吗?我想,应该不太可能吧?这几天,我都感到很寂寞。。。这一种感觉,不只是单纯的寂寞,而是一种我从来都不会有的感觉。。。昨天在学校,我就这样莫名其妙得跟语绚吵起架来了。。。她说她不认为这算吵架,而我觉得这比吵架更严重。。。她说,她不想自寻烦恼,她也觉得,这不是个什么问题。。。我们努力寻找之前的感觉,可是。。。好像都不会有用。。。就算我再怎么得珍惜你,事实还是事实。。。而今天,我们帮章瑜搞生日派对,我却一点也开心不起来。。。Shaun和善萍,也不知道怎么了。。。今天,梁文健一封简讯都没法过来。。。感觉上真的很奇怪。。。总觉得今天缺少了一些什么似的。。。我,已经慢慢得习惯了有你在身旁的感觉。。。没有你,真的很不安心。。。我看到这一切的一切,我忽然心疼起来。。。我想要挽救这一切,可是我知道,我无能为力。。。我唯一能够做的,就是默默在一旁祈祷。。。。。。。。我不是神,我不能决定这一切,可是我答应你们,我会做到最好,来挽回这一切。。。希望你们,会好好照顾自己。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Me and I will represent Yin to have the LAST speech here


For those who know the member in this club. You can see there have no my name and Yin(ice-cream) name inside. Right?
Today, Me and i will represent Yin to have the last speech here. Me and Yin will leave this club and will not in charge in the post in this blog anymore and also the club. For the member who have notice about this post. Please don't concern about is it you did any bad thing to us. And it is nothing happened before we leave apple club. It is just leave and without any argument with member and any misunderstand. We are leaving this club with happiness and also we trust that without us, apple club also can be so good and this club will managed by Jane.
That's all what i need to say in my last speech.
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THANKS AND BYE!!

Transfer of personnel of apple club

Sorry, here is the new transfer of personnel.

Queen= Elizabeth
President= Apple
V.President= Jiang Zu
Secretary= Jane
Counselor= Xuan
Lawyer= Jenny(lawyer)

And the member are just
+Jia Yie


Thank You!!

Saturday, August 8, 2009

SUSHI MAKING















Hello there... Jane here... Well.. So, obviously, as you can see the photo at the top, we are making sushi today.. Hehe.. Me, Jiang Zu, Liong Man Kien, Lee Sen Peng and Desmond... Well..We bought our ingredient at Annie's cooking studio... Then we got our seaweed at servay supermaket... Then we started doing it... The japanese rice is kinda sticky... They stick to our hand.. And we have to lick it, like a dog.. Hehe.. After cooking the rice, we started rolling the sushi... The first few roll was quite awful.. But then the others was quite nice.. HEHE... So after we finished rolling the sushi, Liong Man Kien and Desmond started to act like a monkey.. They play with the SAUSAGE... Haiz... Well that's not the worst part.. they... Haiz... See for yourself if you really wanna know..





























So after that we ate our sushi.. With nice and soft pudding.. Hehe.. It's very delicious.. To tell you the truth.. And I actually try them with chocolate sauce... To my surprise, it taste good.. Hehe...So that's all... I think i will bring some to you guys on Monday..If it doesn turns bad... Hehe.. So BB

Thursday, August 6, 2009















Love is like the chocolates.... With all kind of flavour...
.. When it's romantic, I use white chocolates to describe our love.'' For it's very sweet and all...
.. When it's hurting, I use dark chocolates to describe our love." For it's very BITTER...

this is what i feel each time when i'm with you... the soft touch of a sweet and tender love... wich is beyond us... beyond words.. beyond everything we know..

we are lost in this love.. and what i like the most.. we don't even try to find ways to escape.. is just too beautiful what we live...

.... our love.... give new meanings for my life... for that.. i thank God.. cause He let it happens.. and I thank YOU.. because you chose to love me...

Wad will it like if we really ended up the way i don't want to... Every single morning when I wake up and remember... Wad will it like??? And how many hours do I have to spend on weeping every night before i go to bed? I really have to let you know that I am unconditionally, irrevocably in love with you, NO MATTER WAD THE FUTURE HAVE 4 US!!!

Presented by Jane Ham

My Love Life

Hey guys... I wonder if i share with all of you guys bout my love life for a bit... Will you guys mind? Well... I sure hope not... I have been thinking over and over again... And I decided that i can't stand it... That's why I am writing this... It all started so well... Better than i have expected... But then... Things went wrong... VERY wrong... Since we got together, i started weeping a lot... That i predict i could run out of tears someday... Before that, i was always an optimistic person... Too optimistic, actually... That people actually called me crazy Jane... Well... But it's really different now... Dropping tears every single night.... I really can't stand it anymore... Everything that you did... It hurts... a lot... It's not just me... My friends notice it too... And when i tell you bout it, you said"then listen to them and leave me." I wonder, is that really wad you want? I wanted to tell you my problems... but everytime i try to, you just keep avoiding my questions... You said that it's suppose to be a great day for you... But then i spoiled it... I don't know.. really... is it because you really feels terrible when we are talking bout it, or it's because you don have an answer for it.... I hate to admit it but i really can't stand it anymore... I do love you... A lot... I meant it... But why it just doesn't feel right when we are together.... I feel horrible, perhaps I am a terrible girlfriend... Everyone tried to convince me to break with you... But i keep telling myself that i manage to do it so far... I will never break with you... I love you... But things just got worst and worst, day by day.... No matter how we will ends up, I just hope that we will both make the right decision.... And that we will not regret for the decision that we made.............

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Faith + Hope + Love

Principle of Friends

Faith in friends, friends to Hope on, friends to Love !!!

Friday, July 24, 2009




一个人孤单的
只有朋友在一起的时候
才会感觉的真正的快乐
因为快乐是需要分享
亲爱的朋友
我愿
分享快乐
过去的日子
一如深埋在记忆中的宝石
就算经历过岁月的砥砺
也依然光彩熠熠
就像你
就像那个飞花的季节
因为共同的志向
我们走到一起
为了各自的目标
我们各奔东西
无论身处何地
不要忘了
我们共同走过的
友情岁月
有一种友谊
只等待一位永远的朋友
有一种思念
只等待值得珍惜的人
每一个人就像每一片树叶一样
长得都不一样
仔细看看
就会发现其中趣味之所在
只要愿意用心
一定可以发现别人独特而值得喜欢的一面
除非你一直闭上眼睛
关紧心门
不肯去看
去感受
了解别人
努力发现别人可爱的地方
从自己的立场来说
是一种付出
但也唯有真心付出
才会领悟别人回馈给你的
一定比你付出的还要多得多


I GOT MY FRIEND BACK

Hello there... This is Jane... Well.. Let me tell you wad happen today... Hehe... I do a lot of chatting with Jiang Zu today... Can you believe it? To tell you the truth, I am not used to it at first.. I mean.. You can't blame me right? After these days... I haven't talk to her for so long... But... All I needed was just a few seconds to get used to it... CHEER!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know why but i just kept hugging her... Erm... It made her felt embarrased though... Hehe.... And during english class today, our teacher Miss Chung asked us to act... When my group got in front of the class, I held both of Jiang Zu's hand... CHEER AGAIN!!!!!!!!!! Hehe... So... This is the day I got my friend back... I felt great... ^.^ This kind of happiness.... I knew no one could bring... Hehe... And of course... Yee Xuan... I got her back too... Well... But i have to admit that it wasn't hard... Cause as you guys know, she's that kind of person that always look at the good side of everything... So positive... Just the opposite if me.... I am a negative person... Like my boyfriend said... Haiz.... But at least he said that I cares for others... Haha... Is that true? So I guess I just have to wait for you to tell me bout it... Hehe... So I guess that's all for tonight... Sweet dreams, apple club.... But before that, I will like to share a poem with you guys....

My Friend

My Friend when I think of you.
I think of all that we've been through.
All the times we argue and fight,
I know deep inside that it isn't right.
I, then feel bad and alot of pain.
It feels like I've fallen from the sky like the rain.
I love you dear friend with all of my heart.
But now that you're gone I've fallen apart.
I'm getting better as the days go by.
I wish sometimes this was all a big lie.
I pray to you every night.
It's like you're my fire, a burning light.
My dear friend, I miss you alot.
I still wonder why you were put in that spot.
I know you're in a place much better than here.
Watching and helping me with all of my fear.
Our friendship my dear friend,
we will have to the end.
Friends til the end is what we will be.
Someday we'll be together,
together you and me.

B.F.F

Thursday, July 23, 2009

友情

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[几天的冷战终于过去了]
*~幸好没有感冒~*
: " : " : 她们(Jiang Zu N Jane)终于原谅对方了: " : " :
开心也!!!
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友情不是一天就能得到的,
而是要经过一段伤心开心生气
才能变成一段属于我们之间最美好的回忆
所以要珍惜我们的友情哦~
珍惜友情~珍惜友情~珍惜友情~珍惜友情~珍惜友情~
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In love's apple


In Love's Apple

Every member in this club is called as apple. And we are so apple. Laugh Out Loud. Oh my god~ some apples are in love. Like club president, she is in love, but she tells me that she is just admiring the one she love. Lol. But never mind then, in love too. And the crazy one, Jane, is in love too. A deep one!! The coolest girl, Xuan, is in love but I don’t know whether she fall in love deep to that guy or not?! Me?? How about me? Oh yeah, of course! I am in love too, but I need to study, lol. And the ice cream, I mean the member who call as ice cream, are in love to her ‘xxx’, but not so deep. Whatever lah, it is good to have a ‘target’. For cheering you up!!

^----^

HAPPY~~

By dUrIaN~

Jane's speech



Hello everyone... Jane here... I am a member of Apple Club... So right... i fought with Jiang Zu... And after recess on thursday... I have finally plucked up the courage to tell her that i am sorry.. Wow... And i actually hug her from her back... Hehe... Everybody was like cheering so loudly... It make me blush... Wow... Thx for everyone in the class of 2D... You guys are so caring... Haha... Especially thx to Durian, for providing tissues to me all this time... And Shawn.. A good friend of mine... Who actually acted like a child to make me smile... Hehe... So... I guess i just have to keep my fingers crossed tonight so that we will talk like best friends do in class tomorrow... FRIENDS FOREVER!!! erm... so i guess that's it... I am exhausted... haven't sleep for three whole nights... Cried so much that my pillow went salty... Well... So... Good night....

Apple Club

Today is the first post of Apple Club. This blog is created by the secretary. She is ‘durian’. That’s me. And the following post will post by the club members. Thanks for them to joining this club that develop by the chairman. Of course, she is called as APPLE.

Our club has almost 9 person is joining. They are, Yin (ice cream), Lawyer, Jia Yie, Queen Elizabeth, Xuan, Jiang Zu, and the crazy Jane. Of course me and apple too.

Most sincerely thanks for Yin that is known as ice cream. Laugh Out Loud. She is the one say need to develop the club. And of course the thanks are show to Jane, Jiang Zu and Xuan.

One day, Jane had argued with Jiang Zu. And they had been no talk about 4 days. And the middleman is Xuan. They all are in the cold war. Today, when it was during the recess time. Jiang Zu was tried to escape from Jane and dun want to talk with Jane. And the funniest thing is, between them have cement bin. And we all just stand in front the bin for let both of them can see us.

Bin Yin said:’’ dun like that eh, you both are so stubborn, dun angry lah.”

And I said:” dun angry, dun angry, not you both fault, is my fault. Mine fault.”

All said:’’ of course is your fault.”

Lol, I scarified myself… and both of them smile. How good is that!

Just like that, the apple club is formed.

Anyone who have interest to join our club, please kindly inform me on

Holno53_95@hotmail.com

or tell me through the chat box that place right hand side of the blog.
THANKS!!