Last post....

I have got nothing to say... I am completely speechless... I just wanna ask you guys(friends of Elaine) one question.... DO YOU GUYS KNOW WHO I AM? BESIDES MY NAME IS JANE... TELL ME... WAD DO YOU KNOW MORE THAN THAT? You guys don't understand the whole thing... Do you even know wad exactly happen? Do you know how much I have been through? You don't... You are all Elaine's friend... So automatically you guys know her more... And try to protect her from being bully.... But do you know me????? You guys don know a single bit bout me... And now you are telling me wad to do.... Do you think it's fair???? You don't know me... So please don make a conclusion of who I am.... One of you said that I have to believe my friends if I want them to believe in me... But Everytime I tried to believe her(Melinda), she just turn around and bite me instead... Do you even know that??? No you don't... One of you ask me to break up with my bf to know how it feels.... Now I will tell you that I have been through this... A thougher one... Only you didn't know... And today Sen Peng talk to Lo bout me.... Bout I love to pretend.... I wonder why? I never pretent in front of her.... I thought Sen Peng was my friend.... I thought friends don't have this kind of secrets between them.... Why can't you just tell me and see if I could change? Instead if talking behind my back... And you actually enjoyed it.... When I cried because of it, you actually smile so happily... I really couldn't understand you guys.... One of you actually said that I always cry, eventhough it was just a small problem.... Why can't you guys just understand? I am crying because of you.... I hope you could tell me my problem instead of talking bout it behind my back... Comparing me with others... Who's better and who's a jerk... I guess that's it... And Elaine.... I have no hard feelings toward you... You know I never will.... I am angry today because of wad other people did to me.... Not you... You know I never get mad with you... I just got dissapointed sometimes.... Coz you don't even wanna give me a chance to explain everything... Like wad happen the day before yesterday... Anyway, Elaine... Please... I'm sorry... Though I don know wad did I did that you don't like... But I hope you will tell me.... And erm... Friends of Elaine... I hope you guys enjoy taking over the blog... I am really leaving... This will be my very last post.... Coz I understand nobody will ever try to understand me and keep on making conclusion of who I am... A good person or a bad one.... And I could see that Sen Peng feels alright at this situation... She could still smile and all... Being happy with her friends.... Chatting around and joking around.... I guess that's the best for you... I won't try to get anybody to believe me anymore... Since I have learn that that is no use.... But Sen Peng, I will answer one question of yours in here... You ask Yee Xuan why I wrote that post yesterday.... And I am gonna tell you now... Evrery single post that I have post in here, I wrote it with my true feelings... I don wanna act and wrote that I am happy even when I am not... Yee Xuan told me that one day the truth will come out by itself... I guess all I need to do is wait for the time... And you guys will know automatically... No matter how much you all hate me... I am still gonna love you all... I know wad I am talking about... Seriously... Please don't think that I love to pretend... Though I don't know where you guys got that idea.... I am a person.... That talk from my heart... I did everything that my heart ask me to.... So I guess that's all.... Take care everybody... I just hope that you guys will feel better without me trying to explaining... Futhermore I am tired of explaining, you guys will know the truth one day... Oh yeah... I almost forgot... Elaine... Did you really broke up with your bf because of me? I am very sorry... I couldn't believe you did this to me... Is there any possibilities of you and Keith getting back together? Please? How could I? I have been so selfish... Because wad I think bout Keith, that make you guys borke up... I am very very sorry.... I hope you guys will be together again.... Seeing that you guys are together for that long... Please... I know you guys still love each other... I really feel guilty bout it... I am sorry... sorry... sorry... So I guess that's it... So good bye apple club... And for Elaine's friend, I hope you guys will be happy for wad I did.. Wad I mean is leaving.. Good bye to all of you!!!!!! Best of luck!

刚刚,跟雨链,Melinda,彬莹吵起架来了... 不知道为何,你们根本不想听我的看法...雨链说是我的错,我愿意跟你道歉,是你的错的话,我愿意原谅你....为什么你连听都不听我说,感觉上就是想把我赶走就对了...我用我最平静的心情,想跟你把事情搞清楚....你却跟我说话时每一句都带骨头...你说我之前很过分,在这里把Melinda骂得很可怜,而且之后还把那一个post删除掉...我在这里想说的是,Melinda不是苹果帮的...突然在这里post comment,而且第一句就出口伤人,你觉得这样很合理吗?而且,她说,我怎么会有这样的朋友,还叫我不要再装了...这真的很过分好不好?我在这个blog那么久,从来没在这儿提过她,她竟然就这样一开口就骂人....然后到后来,过了那件事之后,你跟我说你为什么离开苹果帮,我愿意当你的聆听者,过后我还尝试帮你跟语绚谈谈...你要知道,那是在我post关于Melinda的过后你才跟我说的...所以你现在气我,我真的觉得很奇怪...之前对我那么好,愿意与我分享你的痛苦,而现在又为了这么久以前的事气我....我不明白你们的看法...你说我跟以前简直不同了....我愿意接受...你对我有什么不满,我也希望你会告诉我,我会改....真的...之前你告诉我说你相信我多于Melinda,是跟我开玩笑的吧?你知道我有多努力在阿帮你吗?你之前跟我说的,我仔细聆听,然后几夜没睡想办法帮你....你说如果她们不想换一下性格,就由他们吧...你不想给他们压力...所以我才照你的方法去做,不再理会这件事...而我换来的,却是你的不认同与怀疑....说真的...我没有半点觉得生气,只有觉得失望...你们所讨论的...就觉得百分之百是对的...根本连听都不想听我的看法....我知道,我自己也有察觉到我比起以前真的变太多了....你只要告诉我,我都会改...虽然说我不确定我能够彻彻底底把我怀习惯改掉,可是我会尽全力...真的.....有一点,真的让我很失望...你们全拿我来跟Melinda比较...你们说....我觉得至少Melinda比Ham Shu Ying好很多...我听到这样的一句话真的很心疼,我再怎么差,你们也不用这样说吧?说真的,你们好好平静下来想一想,我真的有这样坏吗?你们不跟我很熟，没有到最好的朋友那一种关系。。。你们就旦听外人所说，就判断我是坏人。。。这样对我公平我？你们甚至给我解释的机会都没有。。。我想。。。要回到从前，应该不可能了吧？我不要求你们原谅我。。。我只希望你们听完我的解释后，会觉得好受一点。。。不要恨我。。。这是我唯一的愿望。。。那就。。。说到这里吧。。。。

谢谢你曾经陪伴着我..~

谢谢你做我的朋友..^^

谢谢你让我的回忆更美满..

以前，我们曾经一起吵架过..

以前，我们曾经一起闹纠纷过...
以前，我们曾经一起笑过...
以前，我们曾经一起分享过..

以前，我们曾经一起游戏过..
以前，我们曾经一起嬉戏过..
以前，我们曾经一起读书过..
以前，我们曾经一起活动过..

以前，我们曾经一起发神经过..

以前，我们曾经一起用餐过..
以前，我们曾经一起忙碌过...

以前，我们曾经互相挺立对方过..

以前，我们曾经互相包容过..


许许多多的以前，许许多多的回忆..

这些回忆让我们的童年添加了色彩..

让我们都经过快乐，悲伤，忧虑，害怕...

期盼着要到的将来，

等待着要到的未来..

大家的友情，

永远都没有句号，

大家的友情，

永远都没有污点..

把每一份真诚的友谊，

都藏在心中..

你是我最好的朋友，我希望你知道这个是真的..

无论发生什么事，我都会站在你这里;

当你需要我的时候，我一定会出现,

给你援手，助你一臂..

有需要的时候尽管来找我..

不因为为什么,

只因为我们是朋友..

不希望你忘掉我..

不希望你憎恨我..

只希望你记住我~

一定要记住哦！

希望我们友谊万岁~

CONFUSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok.... Elaine and binyin... I love to have you guys back... Really... I am not pretending... Ok??? Maybe i am just... you know.... Stupid... I don know how to express my feelings.... And erm... It's going to be very nice if you guys are coming back.... Erm... Well... The way that I worte to binyin asking her why she's back in that kind of rude way....I wanna apologize... I am sorry... I just didn't express my feelings correctly... And erm... To tell you guys the truth... I was also a bit mad that time... I mean... Well... How could you guys? You guys leave without reasons and then suddenly coming back posting comments that kind of stuff.... Is that a kind of joke??? I have been reading Elaine's last post for at least ten times... I think.... And every single time... I cried... And cried... And cried... I thought it was my fault that you guys left.... And then suddenly you guys come back and pretending like nothing happen.... posting comments and joke around... I am just very.... you know.... Confused.... Could someone plese explain to me wad have happen???

以后再怎么得忙，我都会定时在这儿写日记，我希望总有一天，我会再看到雨链和彬莹从新加入。。。苹果帮。。。

舒颖草于。。。８月２1日

这个世界，已经到了无法挽回的地步。。。不知道为何，有些事情，就算你再多努力，你都不会得到。。。快乐与悲伤，已经混合在一起。。。就这样一会儿快乐，一会儿悲伤，时间久了，你就会分不出你的心情。。。文健告诉我说，一个星球将会离开轨道，跟地球相撞。。。我知道这样说感觉上很荒诞，但是，为什么我的直觉告诉我说。。。。这很可能发生。。。我反复看着雨链为我们大家留下的离别信，可是，却寻不出原因来。。。如果我在这儿要求你们从新回到苹果帮，你们会答应吗？我想，应该不太可能吧？这几天，我都感到很寂寞。。。这一种感觉，不只是单纯的寂寞，而是一种我从来都不会有的感觉。。。昨天在学校，我就这样莫名其妙得跟语绚吵起架来了。。。她说她不认为这算吵架，而我觉得这比吵架更严重。。。她说，她不想自寻烦恼，她也觉得，这不是个什么问题。。。我们努力寻找之前的感觉，可是。。。好像都不会有用。。。就算我再怎么得珍惜你，事实还是事实。。。而今天，我们帮章瑜搞生日派对，我却一点也开心不起来。。。Shaun和善萍,也不知道怎么了。。。今天，梁文健一封简讯都没法过来。。。感觉上真的很奇怪。。。总觉得今天缺少了一些什么似的。。。我，已经慢慢得习惯了有你在身旁的感觉。。。没有你，真的很不安心。。。我看到这一切的一切，我忽然心疼起来。。。我想要挽救这一切，可是我知道，我无能为力。。。我唯一能够做的，就是默默在一旁祈祷。。。。。。。。我不是神，我不能决定这一切，可是我答应你们，我会做到最好，来挽回这一切。。。希望你们，会好好照顾自己。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

Me and I will represent Yin to have the LAST speech here

For those who know the member in this club. You can see there have no my name and Yin(ice-cream) name inside. Right?
Today, Me and i will represent Yin to have the last speech here. Me and Yin will leave this club and will not in charge in the post in this blog anymore and also the club. For the member who have notice about this post. Please don't concern about is it you did any bad thing to us. And it is nothing happened before we leave apple club. It is just leave and without any argument with member and any misunderstand. We are leaving this club with happiness and also we trust that without us, apple club also can be so good and this club will managed by Jane.
That's all what i need to say in my last speech.
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THANKS AND BYE!!