CONFUSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok.... Elaine and binyin... I love to have you guys back... Really... I am not pretending... Ok??? Maybe i am just... you know.... Stupid... I don know how to express my feelings.... And erm... It's going to be very nice if you guys are coming back.... Erm... Well... The way that I worte to binyin asking her why she's back in that kind of rude way....I wanna apologize... I am sorry... I just didn't express my feelings correctly... And erm... To tell you guys the truth... I was also a bit mad that time... I mean... Well... How could you guys? You guys leave without reasons and then suddenly coming back posting comments that kind of stuff.... Is that a kind of joke??? I have been reading Elaine's last post for at least ten times... I think.... And every single time... I cried... And cried... And cried... I thought it was my fault that you guys left.... And then suddenly you guys come back and pretending like nothing happen.... posting comments and joke around... I am just very.... you know.... Confused.... Could someone plese explain to me wad have happen???