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I have got nothing to say... I am completely speechless... I just wanna ask you guys(friends of Elaine) one question.... DO YOU GUYS KNOW WHO I AM? BESIDES MY NAME IS JANE... TELL ME... WAD DO YOU KNOW MORE THAN THAT? You guys don't understand the whole thing... Do you even know wad exactly happen? Do you know how much I have been through? You don't... You are all Elaine's friend... So automatically you guys know her more... And try to protect her from being bully.... But do you know me????? You guys don know a single bit bout me... And now you are telling me wad to do.... Do you think it's fair???? You don't know me... So please don make a conclusion of who I am.... One of you said that I have to believe my friends if I want them to believe in me... But Everytime I tried to believe her(Melinda), she just turn around and bite me instead... Do you even know that??? No you don't... One of you ask me to break up with my bf to know how it feels.... Now I will tell you that I have been through this... A thougher one... Only you didn't know... And today Sen Peng talk to Lo bout me.... Bout I love to pretend.... I wonder why? I never pretent in front of her.... I thought Sen Peng was my friend.... I thought friends don't have this kind of secrets between them.... Why can't you just tell me and see if I could change? Instead if talking behind my back... And you actually enjoyed it.... When I cried because of it, you actually smile so happily... I really couldn't understand you guys.... One of you actually said that I always cry, eventhough it was just a small problem.... Why can't you guys just understand? I am crying because of you.... I hope you could tell me my problem instead of talking bout it behind my back... Comparing me with others... Who's better and who's a jerk... I guess that's it... And Elaine.... I have no hard feelings toward you... You know I never will.... I am angry today because of wad other people did to me.... Not you... You know I never get mad with you... I just got dissapointed sometimes.... Coz you don't even wanna give me a chance to explain everything... Like wad happen the day before yesterday... Anyway, Elaine... Please... I'm sorry... Though I don know wad did I did that you don't like... But I hope you will tell me.... And erm... Friends of Elaine... I hope you guys enjoy taking over the blog... I am really leaving... This will be my very last post.... Coz I understand nobody will ever try to understand me and keep on making conclusion of who I am... A good person or a bad one.... And I could see that Sen Peng feels alright at this situation... She could still smile and all... Being happy with her friends.... Chatting around and joking around.... I guess that's the best for you... I won't try to get anybody to believe me anymore... Since I have learn that that is no use.... But Sen Peng, I will answer one question of yours in here... You ask Yee Xuan why I wrote that post yesterday.... And I am gonna tell you now... Evrery single post that I have post in here, I wrote it with my true feelings... I don wanna act and wrote that I am happy even when I am not... Yee Xuan told me that one day the truth will come out by itself... I guess all I need to do is wait for the time... And you guys will know automatically... No matter how much you all hate me... I am still gonna love you all... I know wad I am talking about... Seriously... Please don't think that I love to pretend... Though I don't know where you guys got that idea.... I am a person.... That talk from my heart... I did everything that my heart ask me to.... So I guess that's all.... Take care everybody... I just hope that you guys will feel better without me trying to explaining... Futhermore I am tired of explaining, you guys will know the truth one day... Oh yeah... I almost forgot... Elaine... Did you really broke up with your bf because of me? I am very sorry... I couldn't believe you did this to me... Is there any possibilities of you and Keith getting back together? Please? How could I? I have been so selfish... Because wad I think bout Keith, that make you guys borke up... I am very very sorry.... I hope you guys will be together again.... Seeing that you guys are together for that long... Please... I know you guys still love each other... I really feel guilty bout it... I am sorry... sorry... sorry... So I guess that's it... So good bye apple club... And for Elaine's friend, I hope you guys will be happy for wad I did.. Wad I mean is leaving.. Good bye to all of you!!!!!! Best of luck!

刚刚,跟雨链,Melinda,彬莹吵起架来了... 不知道为何,你们根本不想听我的看法...雨链说是我的错,我愿意跟你道歉,是你的错的话,我愿意原谅你....为什么你连听都不听我说,感觉上就是想把我赶走就对了...我用我最平静的心情,想跟你把事情搞清楚....你却跟我说话时每一句都带骨头...你说我之前很过分,在这里把Melinda骂得很可怜,而且之后还把那一个post删除掉...我在这里想说的是,Melinda不是苹果帮的...突然在这里post comment,而且第一句就出口伤人,你觉得这样很合理吗?而且,她说,我怎么会有这样的朋友,还叫我不要再装了...这真的很过分好不好?我在这个blog那么久,从来没在这儿提过她,她竟然就这样一开口就骂人....然后到后来,过了那件事之后,你跟我说你为什么离开苹果帮,我愿意当你的聆听者,过后我还尝试帮你跟语绚谈谈...你要知道,那是在我post关于Melinda的过后你才跟我说的...所以你现在气我,我真的觉得很奇怪...之前对我那么好,愿意与我分享你的痛苦,而现在又为了这么久以前的事气我....我不明白你们的看法...你说我跟以前简直不同了....我愿意接受...你对我有什么不满,我也希望你会告诉我,我会改....真的...之前你告诉我说你相信我多于Melinda,是跟我开玩笑的吧?你知道我有多努力在阿帮你吗?你之前跟我说的,我仔细聆听,然后几夜没睡想办法帮你....你说如果她们不想换一下性格,就由他们吧...你不想给他们压力...所以我才照你的方法去做,不再理会这件事...而我换来的,却是你的不认同与怀疑....说真的...我没有半点觉得生气,只有觉得失望...你们所讨论的...就觉得百分之百是对的...根本连听都不想听我的看法....我知道,我自己也有察觉到我比起以前真的变太多了....你只要告诉我,我都会改...虽然说我不确定我能够彻彻底底把我怀习惯改掉,可是我会尽全力...真的.....有一点,真的让我很失望...你们全拿我来跟Melinda比较...你们说....我觉得至少Melinda比Ham Shu Ying好很多...我听到这样的一句话真的很心疼,我再怎么差,你们也不用这样说吧?说真的,你们好好平静下来想一想,我真的有这样坏吗?你们不跟我很熟，没有到最好的朋友那一种关系。。。你们就旦听外人所说，就判断我是坏人。。。这样对我公平我？你们甚至给我解释的机会都没有。。。我想。。。要回到从前，应该不可能了吧？我不要求你们原谅我。。。我只希望你们听完我的解释后，会觉得好受一点。。。不要恨我。。。这是我唯一的愿望。。。那就。。。说到这里吧。。。。