My Love Life

Hey guys... I wonder if i share with all of you guys bout my love life for a bit... Will you guys mind? Well... I sure hope not... I have been thinking over and over again... And I decided that i can't stand it... That's why I am writing this... It all started so well... Better than i have expected... But then... Things went wrong... VERY wrong... Since we got together, i started weeping a lot... That i predict i could run out of tears someday... Before that, i was always an optimistic person... Too optimistic, actually... That people actually called me crazy Jane... Well... But it's really different now... Dropping tears every single night.... I really can't stand it anymore... Everything that you did... It hurts... a lot... It's not just me... My friends notice it too... And when i tell you bout it, you said"then listen to them and leave me." I wonder, is that really wad you want? I wanted to tell you my problems... but everytime i try to, you just keep avoiding my questions... You said that it's suppose to be a great day for you... But then i spoiled it... I don't know.. really... is it because you really feels terrible when we are talking bout it, or it's because you don have an answer for it.... I hate to admit it but i really can't stand it anymore... I do love you... A lot... I meant it... But why it just doesn't feel right when we are together.... I feel horrible, perhaps I am a terrible girlfriend... Everyone tried to convince me to break with you... But i keep telling myself that i manage to do it so far... I will never break with you... I love you... But things just got worst and worst, day by day.... No matter how we will ends up, I just hope that we will both make the right decision.... And that we will not regret for the decision that we made.............