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I have got nothing to say... I am completely speechless... I just wanna ask you guys(friends of Elaine) one question.... DO YOU GUYS KNOW WHO I AM? BESIDES MY NAME IS JANE... TELL ME... WAD DO YOU KNOW MORE THAN THAT? You guys don't understand the whole thing... Do you even know wad exactly happen? Do you know how much I have been through? You don't... You are all Elaine's friend... So automatically you guys know her more... And try to protect her from being bully.... But do you know me????? You guys don know a single bit bout me... And now you are telling me wad to do.... Do you think it's fair???? You don't know me... So please don make a conclusion of who I am.... One of you said that I have to believe my friends if I want them to believe in me... But Everytime I tried to believe her(Melinda), she just turn around and bite me instead... Do you even know that??? No you don't... One of you ask me to break up with my bf to know how it feels.... Now I will tell you that I have been through this... A thougher one... Only you didn't know... And today Sen Peng talk to Lo bout me.... Bout I love to pretend.... I wonder why? I never pretent in front of her.... I thought Sen Peng was my friend.... I thought friends don't have this kind of secrets between them.... Why can't you just tell me and see if I could change? Instead if talking behind my back... And you actually enjoyed it.... When I cried because of it, you actually smile so happily... I really couldn't understand you guys.... One of you actually said that I always cry, eventhough it was just a small problem.... Why can't you guys just understand? I am crying because of you.... I hope you could tell me my problem instead of talking bout it behind my back... Comparing me with others... Who's better and who's a jerk... I guess that's it... And Elaine.... I have no hard feelings toward you... You know I never will.... I am angry today because of wad other people did to me.... Not you... You know I never get mad with you... I just got dissapointed sometimes.... Coz you don't even wanna give me a chance to explain everything... Like wad happen the day before yesterday... Anyway, Elaine... Please... I'm sorry... Though I don know wad did I did that you don't like... But I hope you will tell me.... And erm... Friends of Elaine... I hope you guys enjoy taking over the blog... I am really leaving... This will be my very last post.... Coz I understand nobody will ever try to understand me and keep on making conclusion of who I am... A good person or a bad one.... And I could see that Sen Peng feels alright at this situation... She could still smile and all... Being happy with her friends.... Chatting around and joking around.... I guess that's the best for you... I won't try to get anybody to believe me anymore... Since I have learn that that is no use.... But Sen Peng, I will answer one question of yours in here... You ask Yee Xuan why I wrote that post yesterday.... And I am gonna tell you now... Evrery single post that I have post in here, I wrote it with my true feelings... I don wanna act and wrote that I am happy even when I am not... Yee Xuan told me that one day the truth will come out by itself... I guess all I need to do is wait for the time... And you guys will know automatically... No matter how much you all hate me... I am still gonna love you all... I know wad I am talking about... Seriously... Please don't think that I love to pretend... Though I don't know where you guys got that idea.... I am a person.... That talk from my heart... I did everything that my heart ask me to.... So I guess that's all.... Take care everybody... I just hope that you guys will feel better without me trying to explaining... Futhermore I am tired of explaining, you guys will know the truth one day... Oh yeah... I almost forgot... Elaine... Did you really broke up with your bf because of me? I am very sorry... I couldn't believe you did this to me... Is there any possibilities of you and Keith getting back together? Please? How could I? I have been so selfish... Because wad I think bout Keith, that make you guys borke up... I am very very sorry.... I hope you guys will be together again.... Seeing that you guys are together for that long... Please... I know you guys still love each other... I really feel guilty bout it... I am sorry... sorry... sorry... So I guess that's it... So good bye apple club... And for Elaine's friend, I hope you guys will be happy for wad I did.. Wad I mean is leaving.. Good bye to all of you!!!!!! Best of luck!